The door opened.
The dark figure stepped on board.
"Where to?"
"Somewhere just before the end would do fine. Thank you."
The figure turned facing other passengers. All seats taken.
It opted for the second choice. To sit on the spot it stood previously.
eighty five.
one
An enormous gap of silence filled the air.
Two phone calls answered abruptly.
It kept it's head low. The pain was intense. Bearable still.
ninety.
two
"A seat behind there."
The figure nodded and walked towards the direction.
It passed two passengers whom it thought caught a glimpse.
The lady sitting beside it definitely saw.
Inhale. Exhale.
Breathe normal.
one hundred and six.
three
four
"Your stop?"
The dark figure stood up.
"Yes. Thank you."
It smiled at the driver. Eyes red.
It stepped off.
Breathe normal. Inhale. Exhale.
And it stopped counting.
Number of times that disturbing thought entered its mind.
Time it waited before it took leave.
Time it was still hoping.
[in exchange for clarity, i give you my patience and compassion.]
[five]
[this is my long.awaited.exit.and i'm finally shutting you out.youmotherfuckingsonofabitch.]
After______________, I picked up cafe triste and started reading.
My 3rd copy of a same book. 4th or 5th time reading. Skipping chapters. Skipping pages. I tried reading aloud.
I be the type who seeks refuge in the wisdom of others.
I've never told you this.
I couldn't quite bring myself to talk about __________________despite writing so much about it.
There is something lacking in my voice that couldn't quite bring itself to convey emotions.
[i'm learning to trust people i know from scratch.]